Kothakoli-came from 'Kolikar kotha', in an effort to log the monologue-ous conversations that rage in conundrum, the arguments and questions that rumble inside to make me, 'me'. Kothakoli strives to stay true to the name: a dance, an exotic, challenging, colorful, beautiful dance. Somewhat like life itself.

Cob web

Stuck on a dynamic cob web

Sticky wires tugging at every available appendage

Pulsating on my nervous system

Tapping all the sensations

Invading crevices of my brain

Reading my private thoughts

Thoughts…stacks of them..

Wound onto each other like snakes,
I’m so confused I could die.

Stuck on these thoughts

The cobweb gnaws at my limbs

I can’t move

I can’t fight it any longer

Any moment I could give in

But another ..just another
as long as you can hold on to another tiny second, you’re saved

Saved .. not given up that is..

Stuck on the cobweb

Pulling me apart

Pulling me into pieces.. tossing them all around

Multiplied a few times

Like twenty-four hours in a day heaved into twenty six if that would please

Like a brain pestled under the pressure of a grandfather clock

Ticking away your opportunities

The brain pestled into millions of cells and blood…a cell for every one

For all that is yet undone

A cell for everyone,

For all who couldn’t undo the lash of the cob web.

Put them all in and shut their motion

Knot their impulses and confuse them

In the whiteness of the cold

That awaits everyone

Ek haate mati chuye

Onno muthoy chilte akash

Shada neel sopno bhase

Kokhono haath range bhorer abhay

Rode ranga sopno jhore bristi hoe—adhara

Chokhe pore thake, jol hoe pore balishe

Kintu dhora dey na –bali

Anguler fak die jhore jay bali

Stup hoe pore payer pashe

Nuri gulor kole otiter moto.

Oi bali diei khela

Oi balitei chhuti

Ghor badha

chhele manushi

oi bali-i nurir kole nuie matha

bole

“ma ar jabona”.

Oi bali-i haater muthoy lukochuri.

Desher mati.

Haater moa

Sokher khaoa.

Peter tan-moner swad..

Ei haatei angikar,

Tai muthor chilte akash kalo

Kintu balite joto kach chilo

Chaoar joto paoa chilo—safal sopner dol

Kalo akasher tara hoe takie hase

Tara-rao oteet.

Oteeter aishwarja

Aj haate tai mati chue thaka

Onno hate fike hoa poobakash

Oteeter uthone sondhe hoe ele shakher bhashay

Notun bali rod dekhe chokh kuchke takay

Eder balite kacher tukro achhe?

Rastar pashe nurir stup?

Notun desh purono niome arekta din peroy

Sabdhane dudiker jan gari dekhe

Sabdhane notun deshta dekche tar prothom godhuli

era godhuli chenena ma

Eder balite kach achhe kina janina

Tao ek haate mati chue thaki

Onno haate chilte akash

Guro sopner sonchoy..

Nov 9, 2005

Mediocrity....

We, the mediocre poets
Always hanging by the hem of a poem
Not quite finding the magical words
That'd prick your soul, trick your soul
We twist our meaning to your rhyme
We, the average philosophers
Forever lurking at the edge of truth
Not quite summoning the courage
To truly embrace what we know
To truly know what we have embraced
We, the half-way rebels
Standing for long with angst in our songs
Not quite unleashed, unsheathed
Squatted upon our ivory towers
With clenched fists and rectum, and eunuch rage
We, the settled down nomads
With ancient wanderlust on our breath
That reeks of moss upon rolling stones
Sitting aside our bundled belongings
Disintegrating within our make-shift abodes
We, yes, we- you, and you, and me
Fence sitters forevermore
Siding with war, but longing for peace
Waiting for madmen and messiahs
To set us free, and let us be


Not my composition, but very close to my thoughts..don't know who wrote this, don't remmeber how I laid my hands on it....
Enjoy